Victory?
If any of you know me personally, you should know that I am terrible at trying to focus on doing anything other than what I want to do. I have a hard time trying to concentrate on my school work because it is less than interesting to me, and I feel that my time could be better used elsewhere. Even though I'm paying for my classes, and I know how much it hurts me to not have ambition, I still fail at finding the ambition to do what needs to be done to succeed. This semester, I feel that I may have had a slight breakthrough.
This semester, like any other semester, I still failed to put forth the effort to succeed. I didn't do as good as I could have in two out of the three classes (the third, it was almost impossible for me to not get the work done). It really didn't look like anything had changed, even though at the beginning of the semester, it looked like I may have had the ambition. Towards the end of my semester, any chances of me passing two of my classes were bleak, especially my Intermediate Algebra class. Instead of just giving up and accepting defeat like before, I actually stepped it up. Granted, I still failed miserably at doing my Algebra homework, but I made an effort to attend my classes, and I made an effort to pay attention instead of ignore the lesson plan.
Attending all of my classes gave me the needed push to put forth, at least, enough effort to pass the class. In Algebra, my exam grades bounced back after a disappointing failed exam. The extra effort made it so that I was able to pass the class, albeit barely. Although, I did end up passing all of my classes, after all, I'm not entirely happy about the outcome. For the first time in college, I did pass all of the classes that I was registered to, but that's also why I'm not entirely happy about the outcome. As Chris Rock said, one shouldn't be proud of doing something they're SUPPOSED to do because they're supposed to do it. I am supposed to pass all of my classes 100% of the time. It'd be different if I struggled in school because I wasn't capable of understanding the curriculum. I understand things just fine if I set my mind to paying attention, and that's where I falter. I don't put forth the effort to attend the classes, and I don't do work outside of the classroom, and that's where I fail.
Hopefully, what I was able to accomplish this semester will give rise to some ambition. After all, my Algebra class was probably the hardest class that I haven't taken that's required for my degree. I can't say that I have changed for the better at this point, but with this semester over, one can only hope for the best.